Growing Pains.
When you ask God for flowers, sometimes He gives you rain.
Not to punish you, but to prepare you.
Because He knows exactly what He’s doing.
I’m in this season that honestly feels so surreal.
I’m engaged to Jack—the man I used to pray for.
I left the job that was draining the life out of me.
I’m building the blog I’ve dreamed about since I was nineteen.
I’m living in Miami part-time. Planning a summer of travel to places I’ve had on my vision board for years.
It’s beautiful. It’s exciting. It’s full of God’s faithfulness.
But at the same time? I’ve never felt more stretched.
And I guess that’s the part no one really talks about.
That stepping into answered prayers can feel hard.
Not because the blessing isn’t real—but because you’re being asked to grow into the person who can carry it.
That’s what God is doing with me right now.
He gave me what I asked for… and now He’s giving me what I need to sustain it.
And that part? It’s deep. It’s personal. It’s uncomfortable sometimes.
Because becoming the woman you’ve always dreamed of being—
The one who’s bold, steady, grounded, creative, obedient, joy-filled—it takes work.
God’s been showing me that I can’t stay the same and expect to live a different kind of life.
He’s pulling out old patterns I didn’t even know I was still holding onto.
He’s teaching me discipline. Teaching me how to show up when no one’s clapping.
How to walk by faith, not by feelings.
How to be faithful with what’s in front of me instead of waiting for the perfect moment.
And I’ve realized… He’s not just giving me blessings—He’s asking me to steward them.
So yeah, it’s emotional.
Sometimes I cry for no reason.
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed even though I’m in the middle of what I asked for.
But maybe that’s what happens when you’re shedding old skin.
Maybe that’s what becoming looks like.
God’s not trying to make it harder than it needs to be.
He’s just doing it His way. The better way. The best way.
He’s not trying to give me a “moment” from my Pinterest board—He’s building an entire life of beauty and freedom.
He’s growing my roots before He shows off the bloom.
Because He’s the King of the hidden harvest.
And He loves me too much to let me skip the process.
Fast fruit fades. But a deep-rooted life? That lasts.
So if you’re here too—living in what you prayed for but also feeling like God is undoing and rebuilding you in so many ways…
You’re not alone.
You’re not doing it wrong.
You’re not behind.
You’re just growing.
And sometimes, that looks like rain.
But don’t mistake the stretch for a setback.
Don’t confuse the discomfort for distance.
God is closer than ever.
He sees who you’re becoming—even if you don’t yet.
So maybe this isn’t resistance.
Maybe it’s the rain.
And maybe the rain is the beginning of the bloom.
Maybe the rain is the answer to your prayers all along.
Keep going, friend…God’s not just growing the life you prayed for, He’s growing you into the person who can live it well.
