The Confidence I Couldn’t Find on Instagram
For the past few months, I stepped away from Instagram. Not because I didn’t love creating or sharing my life, but because I knew I needed some deep healing. I needed time with God. Time to heal, to wrestle, to strip away all of the outside noise and let Him rebuild my confidence from the inside out.
I didn’t want to come back until it was real. Until I wasn’t just showing up for likes or views, but because my heart was ready to share again from a place of overflow.
And now here I am, in Bali of all places, feeling like God has been writing this story all along, just waiting until the timing was right. It feels like a fresh start, but with a deeper foundation this time. It feels right. It feels good. It feels true.
And pleaseeeee hear me loud and clear: I’m not here to be an influencer. Honestly, that’s the last thing I would ever want to be.
I’m here to be living proof of the extraordinary things God can do with an ordinary girl. My life isn’t perfect, I don’t have it all together, and my journey has been far from easy. But that’s the beauty of it. Because the last few months have taught me that confidence doesn’t come from looking a certain way or hitting certain milestones that I’ve been chasing for years. It comes from knowing who you are in Christ and living out of that truth every single day.
Healing has been the furthest thing from easy. There were days I felt lost, insecure, and unsure if I’d ever really feel like myself again. But God used that tough season to reshape me. To remind me that my worth was never in my appearance or accomplishments. It was always in Him.
And on the other side of that hard season? Freedom. Peace. A kind of confidence that doesn’t change with circumstances. For the first time ever, I feel like I’m finally walking along the path God had for me all along.
What Confidence in Christ Really Means
And if you’re reading this and you’re not a Christian, or maybe you don’t really know Jesus yet, let me explain what I mean by “confidence in Christ.”
It’s not about being religious or perfect on the outside. It’s not about following rules. It’s about knowing you are fully loved, fully chosen, and fully known by God, exactly as you are right now.
Confidence in Christ means your worth doesn’t rise or fall based on how you look, what you achieve, or how many people approve of you. It means you can stop striving and start resting in the truth that you are enough because He made you enough, and that will never change.
Living out of that kind of confidence looks like freedom:
Freedom to take care of your body because you love it, not because you hate it.
Freedom to step into opportunities without fear of failure, because your identity isn’t tied to the outcome.
Freedom to live with joy, even when life is messy, because you know you’re not walking alone.
That’s what I’ve been learning these past few months. And that’s why I’m back online now. Not to become an influencer, but to share my life and my story as I live it. The ups, the downs, the lessons, and the victories in the hope that it reminds you that God can do the same for you.
Because if He can take my insecurities, my struggles with PCOS, my seasons of doubt, and turn them into something purposeful and beautiful, He can absolutely do it for you too.
Here’s to this new chapter rooted in Him, full of freedom, and walking forward in confidence. Honestly, I’ve never felt so excited to be back. But we’re back baby, and we’re better than ever.
Soooo happy to be here.
